Recovery Shared: your online source for all things recovery. My goal was to be like a big drug dealer! Like, but I wanted to be a good drug dealer! I wanted to get everything they wanted, like, not just like one drug, but like all the drugs. So you could do all your shopping at one visit. One person. Right! I was like: That’s what I want! I wanna be that! I had done Roxie’s a few times, which, you know, oxycontin and it never really stuck with me but I have been doing… I did ecstasy on the weekends, but my big thing was coke and Xanax. During the week, or just to maintain… Yeah! Every day! And I have a boyfriend who’s using, and I’m staying at his mom’s house, where she’s drinking and her boyfriend smoking crack. And I’m just surrounded by this, right? The odds are just against you. I’m on probation now, and I have at least two drug tests a month, like, I’m like, I need to do the right thing! Dude… so stupid… I was so, I was just so ignorant! I got arrested. For what? Drug trafficking. In Boca? Yes. What’d they get you with? They had caught me… they had been watching me for a few months, so they caught me on four separate deals. The first three deals were ecstasy. Hundreds of ecstasy pills, and then the last deal was oxys, proxys and Xanax. So this is a pretty serious situation, though. Yeah! What are they trying to charge you with? 120 years in prison. As an adult. I was only 17, but they were fuckin pissed… so it’s four separate counts, plus conspiracy counts. You know, and they all, I guess, have a maximum of 30 years minimum, but they each have a mandatory minimum of three years for each count. So you’re looking at at least three… three times four. Right. So 12 years minimum you’re looking at. And you are this high school kid. Yeah! House arrest, went to jail. Okay. Got bonded out, got put on house arrest until I was on pretrial release. And I was just getting high the whole time. On the same stuff? Pretty much? Roxys and oxys. You know, I was broke, I was not very employable, I didn’t have anything, I didn’t have a GED yet, I was studying for my GED, and I was really down… and my dad was was like: well… you know… pray. You know, pray. And, like, I really got into praying everyday, and they tell you in DAF, you know, when you’re getting sober: pray every morning for God to keep you sober, and at night thanking. Well, I’m like, that’s not enough for me! Like, I can do so much damage sober, all right? My main thing, even in treatment, was my behavior. It wasn’t even really drugs. I had awful behavior patterns. Just disrespectful? You know, just like a little bit bipolar, A little bit just like, you know, I had mental stuff that really had never been addressed . So, you know, I would pray to God in the morning: please keep me out of trouble today! I wanted to have my own business. I became very entrepreneurial. That’s when I opened a sober-living. Wow! Which I loved! My male sober living Barrington Houses in Lantana. It’s, like, my favorite time of my life, probably. Why? I just, like, had so much fun! I had people working for me, like real employees. I had like six employees there… they were all amazing… You were helping people… I was! Yeah! And you were doing the right thing! And I was doing the right thing! And I got to hang out in a halfway house, like a real one, like, where they have fun and, like, do pranks on each other, and I kind of was like,” in charge”, you know, but… It was, I just had a great time! It was great people to be surrounded by, and the clients were amazing, and the staff was great, and I really, really, really had like, the best! I cared about it so much! You’re doing the right thing here… uh-huh. And you’re seeing your life get better… So you continue to do this, and this grows. Yeah! Okay! Everything’s going good! So how long how long has it been since you picked up? Ten years, almost ten years. So you got almost ten years clean and sober. That’s phenomenal! mm-hmm.