An Addicts Worst Enemy For Getting Stuck In Addiction – Lying To Ourselves

An Addicts Worst Enemy For Getting Stuck In Addiction – Lying To Ourselves


– What’s goin on
everyone, Matt, Greg here. Project Unbroken, subscribe below. So today we’re gonna be
talking about why we believe that many addicts can’s
get sober, especially with heroin and opiates,
but really I think this goes across the board. So for me, I think it’s
that we lie to ourselves, I take myself back to,
especially when me and Matt were together and we’d be
like, “You know, this is gonna “be our last time, we’re just
gonna get our last bags, here, “this time, let’s get double
the amount because this is “our last time.” Right? We would use, we’d fall
right back in the cycle. Or, you’re high, you’re
feeling good, you’re like, “I’m done with this shit, man, I’m done, “I’m not using anymore!” Yeah, of course you’re motivated
to quit ’cause you’re high and you’re feeling good, and
then all of the endorphines wear off and you start feeling
like shit and doesn’t sound like such a good idea anymore, right? And then you go back to,
“Well, let’s just go do it “one more time, that’d be it.” So, I think it’s a constant
repeating cycle, and then even when you do quit for a little
bit, maybe a few days, a week, you, you know, we’ve made
a video on withdrawal and how the initial phase
sucks, but then the mental stuff lasts a long time, so
you get 4, 5, 6 days in, a lot of the physical
stuff’s out the window, but your head’s not there yet
so you start tricking yourself again, where you’re like,
“Okay, well I’ve been off “for a week, I can control
this, let me go just do it “one more time.” And then, bam, you’re right
back into every single day. So, for me, I think it’s
just that we lie to ourselves and we just keep puttin’
ourself through that cycle. – Yeah, I agree, and I just
think that’s just human nature, in general, like a lot of
times, whether somebody’s trying to quit smoking cigarettes,
or they’re trying to eat healthier and not eat
so much junk or whatever, or their trying to quit
heroin, you’ll always lie to yourself to give yourself
a little bit of an out. The only difference is
with heroin, you could die. (laughs) You know, like that instant. So, especially when you have
somebody that, Greg mentioned, somebody’s been off for a
little while and they’re like, “Alright, well I kinda have
a handle on this thing.” And something comes up, whether
it’s a stressful situation or whatever might cause
that person to relapse, that next time could be the last time. And because they think, “I
didn’t do anything for a week”, or whatever, “Maybe I
can just manage this.” I think deep down we
know that’s not the case, and we would constantly lie
to ourselves about, you know, because Greg and I were
semi-functional, we were like, “Alright, well we kinda
got it together, I think we “can manage this thing.” And it just slowly revealed
itself to be way more powerful than we were. But even after we saw that,
we would continue to kinda make excuses or find
loopholes or whatever, to find an excuse to use. – Yeah, so if you’re an
addict and you do that, start trying to be honest
with yourself, I mean, what are you really doing there, right? Again, you know, you’re tricking
yourself, I think you know deep down what you’re doing but
you just, you don’t wanna go through the pain. You get to any situation
there’s pain involved, and you’re like, “Alright,
I’m just gonna do this “one more time and that’s it.” But what are you really doing? You’re trying to escape the
current pain that you’re in, but guess what? You’re just gonna have
to go through it again, so you might as well just
stop right now, might as well just be it, not one more
time, not this is it. It’s gotta be right now,
because you’re gonna feel like this again, and then you’re
gonna trick yourself again, you’re gonna fall right
back into addiction. – I remember specific
instances where I would be a few days clean, and I’d
be like, “Oh, I gotta go “to this interview or this
thing, so I should get high “so I don’t seem like I’m
depressed, or whatever.” And then I’d get high and
screw myself up even worse than I was in the first
place, instead of just, kinda biting the bullet and
being like, “Well, you’re “gonna have to learn how to
deal with these things sober “either way.” It’s just there’s always
gonna be an excuse or something that comes up
where you’re like, “I should “probably get high so I kinda
come back down to baseline “for this, whatever.” And it’s always gonna
set you back 100 yards, you’re gonna be back to
square-one real quick. – I think it can actually
be really dangerous, especially with heroin and all
the fentanyl and carfentanil that’s around, because, you
don’t use for a week or so, and your tolerance isn’t
as high, then you go back, you’re like, “Well, I can do this again.” Then you use what you used
to and you overdose, so– – Your tolerance is completely off. That’s where a lot of ODs
stem from, is that situation. – I also think that a lot of
people end up getting worse when they do that, they come
back and they’re even worse in their addiction, they
get out for a little bit, come back even worse again,
so it’s really dangerous. You gotta be truthful with
yourself and realize what you’re doing, you’re just trying
to escape the situation, but you’re not gonna escape it. And in order to escape it
you have to start going through it, and to go
through it you can’t just do one more time, it can’t
just be, “This is it, “I’m gonna quit, one last time.” If you use, it has to be right now. – Yep, yeah you can’t let
it be an option in your life any longer, no matter what
comes up, you have to understand obstacles, roadblocks, whatever,
you’re gonna have to get through that without the
help of your former crutch, whatever you’re addiction was, so. – Alright, hope you all
enjoyed this video, subscribe below, comment, let us
know what you think, and we’ll see you all on the next one. – See ya guys.

4 comments

  1. I have said that stuff so many times. Had to laugh about saying I will quit when I'm high or thinking I had my use under control or just one more time won't hurt. I hurt and want to use again. Or yeah the I have to work or see people. It's a cycle. Thank for this. Reminds me of how far I have come. I can see the cycle and know how it affects me. Couldn't have done that 18months ago. Cheer s guys.

  2. Omg I really thought I was the only one that told myself these same lies πŸ‘ŒπŸ‘ŒπŸ‘Œ wow

  3. I'm honestly sitting here on day one of withdrawal for the thousand time πŸ˜£πŸ‘Œ it honestly just feels impposible ,but congratulations on you guys sobriety ✌️

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