An Alex Unknown Vlog|Alcoholism and Social Anxiety

An Alex Unknown Vlog|Alcoholism and Social Anxiety


hello um I’ve been kind of wanting to talk about this although I don’t I’m gonna be kind of dreading it and I feel as though this
is– that me talking about this might be even braver than me talking back
social anxiety basically what i’m going to do is I’m going to try and talk about
how alcoholism maybe relate to social anxiety and– in the early
earlier stages before–in the earlier earlier this year I earlier this year um
I honestly didn’t know there I didn’t know that I had social anxiety I just
thought that it was a constant fluctuating in and out of of depression
in the hole after years of being rejected in high school and and last few
years of primary school that overall grade school but ever you want to call
it at all at that we naturally fearing social situations was normal so Oh
however I did use alcohol as a coping mechanism at one point this I honestly
feel embarrassed honestly I’ve been sober for quite a few months um it’s
taken me a very um I have they almost willed the power to do to do it mainly
because well yeah I am embarrassed by this but I how much I drank and what i drank
i also believe that i might have actually lost some potential friends
with– with what I with what I may have said or do while drunk that– actually
I didn’t even get drunk just kind of like while I was on alcohol even but yeah… okay um please forgive me about my pause and
just breathing it out like it’s gonna be really tense or something because I
honestly do because I honestly think of this honestly I’m embarrassed by talking
about this and yeah I and yeah it was really really embarrassing for me and
the main thought that um though the main thought that um goes through my mind
every time but I’m tempted and I am tempted at times is that I how do I put
this? the temptation is it from I can’t really describe the temptation but
yeah yeah usually the thoughts that run through my mind is is along the lines of
okay it’s okay it was embarrassing when I that I did it earlier and I just kind
of have to remember that I just kind of have to remember that God basically my
thoughts are alcohol does not help in fact it makes things worse– it might
make you feel a little better it might even make — and for all people
suffering social anxiety it might make people feel a little better I will–
it might even make them come make them –become only more comfortable in
social situations however the thing is is that it doesn’t help– help in the
long run it doesn’t yeah this is a very hard video video to
do and wanted to talk about. Yeah I’ve kind of but yeah I have stayed sober
for quite a while and I really really congratulate myself for staying
sober this long um yeah I it’s a case of I won’t drink at all now even if I
bring some alcohol as a gift up to a party or something it will be a case of
it’ll be the case if you know what yeah you guys can’t drink it in front of me and all
that that’s fine however it’s a step however this is step I’ve taken to try and
and I’ve taken and I– and I’m going to try to stick to it you guys
they can still drink in front of me and all that they have known– again this is
really really hard to talk about because with social anxiety it’s it’s mental and
I can’t help it with alcoholism it’s–it isn’t when you do talk about it I don’t
know oh it sounds like what’s going on it
sounds like what’s going on it on it is that it’s all on you and of which I don’t
want that as kind of like the reaction here– here and –here– here– either way me talking about this is really really embarrassing on my part
which is why i have– which is why I’m extremely anxious right now talking to
you guys about it and it and I will further be anxious about uploading this
for the entire world to see in that time and it is but either way it is something
that either way are the steps I’ve taken to stop my social anxiety it is something
that I have remained consistent it is something that I consistently but this
is something I’ve consistently managed to beat which there is and while it has
been tempting at times I it’s never been i i usually kind of have the thoughts of– i usually kind of think around it I think my thoughts kind of talk me out of it
which I know sounds insane but yeah I be but yet it does but yeah um it kind
of flashes towards um what kind of stuff has been– stuff I have done and yeah I really I really don’t know what else
to say except if except as though I may have lost potential friend but I
mentioned earlier in this video that I have lost potential friends my only thoughts are
that I really hope to apologize to these people for the way I’ve acted earlier
this year yeah and while it might in I don’t know one side-effect of social
anxiety is a lot and I’ve seen in a very little thing of they might not even
still remember that and without for me it’s huge it’s much huge it might be
can be much huger than it is is either way I don’t really think alcohol really
helps and I think that if you guys and I think that someone is suffering from
social anxiety and drinking alcohol um my thoughts I if if it gets
what it is that yeah like I do have advice and eyes that if you guys are
drinking if I’m so socially anxious people are drinking then my thoughts are sorry it’s sorry it’s really hard to talk
about this as I said please bear with me if they are trying to– if you guys
are go– drinking while having social anxiety then my thoughts then my advice
is I’m not forcing you guys to do anything but if things do kind of spiral a
little bit out of control then my advice is to stop for the moment because–
because it might seem harmless a bit at first but if things do get worse than it’s
almost nightly which it was for me yeah I really don’t know what else to say well you
know this is a again this is a really hard video to do so i really hope you
like it i really hope you watch it –watch it until now i don’t know how long this has been going on and yeah

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