James’ story – heroin user survival stories: from addiction to recovery | My Treatment My Choice

James’ story – heroin user survival stories: from addiction to recovery | My Treatment My Choice


when I was 16 I left home I got my first job and as soon as I encountered any substance for the first time of when in great enthusiasm then around 18 I tried hearing for the first time for me that was like an epiphany the strange thing was even though it made me feel like that I didn’t try it again for quite a few years I spent the sort of early to mid part my twenties I were sort of traveling rounds parts of Europe and Asia and working through our works in catering industry or bar management and restaurant management which is rife with drugs I think the next big step in my life as far as drugs were concerned well it’s probably when I went to live in Hong Kong for a year and heroin was very socially acceptable out there after being addicted it probably lasts about six months where I was you know taking huge amounts her in every day but still working the sort of one day I woke up and literally thought you know this is ridiculous I even got my return fare back to England and I’m never going to get it as long as I’m taking heroin and I went cold turkey I didn’t know how bad it was going to be I thought it’s gonna feel a bit ropey for a day or two but Lacey I spent sort of you know four or five days of just horrific sickness and then sort of have a couple of weeks of just feeling sore you know moderately close to death as a as opposed to you know really die if I don’t know what’s going to happen I would never have done it at that time and I don’t know to where recreational stops and dependent side at the time I really didn’t look at it like that I think I kidded myself a very long time but I could still use recreationally and not become dependent because I had my warning and it wasn’t gonna happen again but while I was thinking that I had become you know dependent drug user and then I was living on the streets so obviously that was quite a defining moment you know he met how much denial you mean there in your sleeping in on the Clapham Common on a bench and you know you haven’t even a couple of days you can you know denial kind of ends there you can’t say I haven’t got a problem anymore because you obviously have I was in hospital with cellulitis and my leg was so bad I couldn’t make it out there wore to school I didn’t have a lot of choice I tried because I was going into a jaws anam and you know I was prepared to risk losing my leg rather than go into her drawers line in a hospital ward fortunately when I left that hospital I’ll put straight back into a hostel which was a drug-using hostel so basically it didn’t you know the absence didn’t last very well so months back at a hostel though I started using street drugs again I also engaged with a doctor and a drug worker and got medication my drug use sort of went down and my activity levels well you know through normal date settings they today things start to rise so there’s a mixture of things you know changing location starting to work with you know good drug workers not they sort of turn up and just click the wages and you know tell me about your job problem about all before sort of thing but drug workers that have a proper interest and a change of medication as well those sort of three things came together to really make it make a change the only part that came to Cal every engaged with was the needle exchanged and told that point but obviously after spending a few weeks on medication and realizing you know I don’t have to spend half my life in withdraws while I’m trying to obtain the money or obtain drugs you know so I had to engage to get their medication decease of pure matter purse my own perception of it I don’t think I’ve ever relapse because I don’t think I’ve ever truly been free of drugs until now so I went through periods of stability where I was taking medication or I was what I called dabbling recreationally so I never at any point felt like oh I’m clean which is a word I hate because they implied you’re dirty otherwise but I’ve never any point for I’m totally free of drugs and that’s it I’m never going to go back to drugs again it was always you know I’m just stable in a moment so until this sort of episode in my life where I know now that I’ll never go back to drugs I’ve never considered about relapse because if I started taking drugs now I’ll consider a relapse so I’ll do you think I’m rehabilitated when it comes to taking drugs but in the past I never have been rehabilitated so therefore it was just a continuance I’ve started my own organization social enterprise it’s gonna be helping people it’s alcohol and drug problems my private life yeah I’ve been with my partner for four years now I’m engaged we hope to get married soon is it’s just finances basically too many people spend years and years of time just so afraid of even ten you know attempting to go into treatment because they just think at some point they’re going to have to go through severe withdrawals and that’s not the case you know you’re at some point it’s always gonna be a bit a little bit of a trade-off a little bit of payback when you finally come off whatever medication you choose but if it’s done in a correct in a wedding fun way it can be minimised very you know where it becomes a discomfort as opposed to a lot of hurt and horrendous experience for for many years I just thought it was one medication you could take and there’s many you know it wasn’t until I’ve been through the treatment system you know several times I even started you know hearing about these sort of things so I’m not saying that if I don’t know if I have had all the information from day one it would have been a great success immediately am I not mean but there have been a hell of a lot of a better chance if I were at least being aware of the options

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