One Woman Opens Up About Her Journey Through Sex Addiction | Megyn Kelly TODAY

One Woman Opens Up About Her Journey Through Sex Addiction | Megyn Kelly TODAY


THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE.>>THANK YOU FOR HAVING ME.>>SO YOU WERE 12 WHEN YOU FIRST SORT OF HAD YOUR FIRST EXPERIENCE, AND I’M SURE A LOT OF PEOPLE WERE LIKE, WHAT WAS THE MIND-BLOWING THING, RIGHT? YOU CAN READ ABOUT IT IN THE BOOK. BUT IT WASN’T SO MUCH THE JOY OF THE FEELINGS, IT WAS — IT BECAME AN OBSESSION FOR YOU, RIGHT?>>YES.>>WHAT WAS THE DRIVER, TO MAKE YOU DO IT SO OFTEN, OVER AND OVER AND OVER, EVEN AT THAT YOUNG AGE?>>WELL, I THINK THAT MY FIRST EXPLORATION WITH MASTURBATION AND PORN STARTED OFF NORMALLY. I THINK MOST KIDS AROUND THAT AGE WOULD BE CURIOUS AND EXPLORE THEIR BODY. BUT I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH SCOLIOSIS NOT LONG AFTER THAT DISCOVERY. THAT’S WHEN THINGS STARTED TO CHANGE FOR ME. I STARTED TO REALLY THINK OF MYSELF AS SOMETHING WEIRD OR SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND SHAMEFUL. I FOUND THAT USING PORN AND MASTURBATING WERE EFFECTIVE METHODS OF COPING WITH THAT.>>IT WAS LIKE AN ESCAPE FOR YOU.>>RIGHT. YEAH SH IT WAS YEAH, IT WAS A WAY FOR ME TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD AND NOT THINK OF EMOTIONAL DIFFICULTIES THAT CAME UP FOR ME THAT I DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH PROPERLY.>>YOU WRITE ABOUT HOW YOU WERE — YOU WOULD BE IN THE SCHOOL, AT SCHOOL, AND YOU’D GO INTO THE BATHROOM SHATALLS AND HAVE TO DO IT.>>RIGHT.>>ASKING YOURSELF, IS THIS NORMAL? ARE OTHER GIRLS DOING THIS? I MEAN, DID YOU HAVE THE LIGHT BULB THAT, LIKE, IT ISN’T? PROBABLY THEY AREN’T?>>YEAH. I THINK THAT THAT JUST CAME OUT OF ALL THE SILENCE THAT COMES AROUND SEX AS A YOUNG WOMEN, AS A YOUNG GIRL. NOBODY WAS TALKING ABOUT IT. I WAS RAISED CATHOLIC. MY PARENTS, THEY DIDN’T REALLY TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. I THINK THAT’S BECAUSE THEIR PARENTS DIDN’T REALLY TALK TO THEM ABOUT SEX. SO I JUST HAD THIS IDEA THAT I WAS DOING SOMETHING BAD AND SOMETHING WRONG. I THINK THAT IF PEOPLE WERE TALKING ABOUT IT, THAT I MIGHT HAVE FELT COMFORT AND I MIGHT HAVE FELT THAT I WAS DOING SOMETHING COMPLETELY NORMAL AND IT WOULD HAVE CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE.>>THE SELF-PLEASURE, FOR ANYONE COMING OF AGE, IS NOT — THERE’S NOTHING ABNORMAL ABOUT IT, RIGHT? IT WAS THE AMOUNT, THE FREQUENCY AND THE DOMINANCE THAT IT WOUND UP HAVING ON YOUR LIFE, CERTAINLY AS YOU BECAME AN ADULT. BUT WAS THAT THE CASE, EVEN AS A TWEENER, INTO YOUR TEENS?>>YES. IT DEFINITELY BECAME AN OBSESSION. IT BECAME A WAY FOR ME TO COPE WITH ANYTHING THAT CAME UP THAT FELT TOO BIG AND TOO SCARY. I NEVER REALLY FELT COMFORTABLE DOING IT. THERE WAS NEVER THIS POINT EARLY ON WHERE I FELT LIKE I WAS WORTHY OF THIS KIND OF PLEASURE. IT JUST KEPT LIKE SOMETHING I WAS DOING, AND IF PEOPLE FOUND OUT I WAS DOING IT, THEY WOULD CERTAINLY THINK I WAS DISGUSTING AND NOT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME.>>THOSE — THE THEME IN THE BOOK, THESE ARE SOME OF THE EMOTIONS AND ADJECTIVES SHE USES TO DESCRIBE HERSELF AND HOW SHE FELT. EMPTINESS, SHAME, ISOLATED, REVOLTING, GUILT, PITIFUL, WORTHLESS. WAS THAT ALL PART OF IT? I MEAN, WAS THAT — IN OTHER WORDS, WHAT I’M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IS WHETHER THOSE ARE THE FEELINGS THAT LED TO THE ADDICTION, OR THOSE ARE THE FEELINGS CAUSED BY THE BEHAVIOR ASSOCIATED WITH THE ADDICTION.>>I THINK BOTH. CERTAINLY, IT STARTED THAT WAY. YOU KNOW, I HAD THESE FEELINGS OF INADEQUACY BECAUSE I FELT DIFFERENT FROM EVERYBODY ELSE. AS I CONTINUED TO COPE IN THIS WAY AND NOBODY WAS TALKING ABOUT IT, THOSE FEELINGS JUST CONTINUED AND BECAME BIGGER THAN THEY SHOULD HAVE.>>AND HOW BIG A ROLE DID THE INTERNET PLAY?>>A HUGE ROLE.>>ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WERE FIRST SORT OF GETTING INTO THIS.>>RIGHT. SO I FEEL LIKE MY ADDICTION COINCIDED WITH THE DIGITAL AGE. SO IT STARTED WITH SOFT CORE PORN.>>SO TO SPEAK.>>RIGHT. SO THE INTERNET CAME ABOUT WHEN I WAS AROUND 12/13. SO DOWNLOADING PICTURES BECAME A THING. CHAT ROOM ENCOUNTERS. EVERY TIME I MIGHT HAVE GOTTEN OVER IT AND MAYBE LOST ME ENGAGED AND ENT ICED AGAIN.>>YOU WROTE, NOTHING IS ENOUGH. YOU STARTED WITH THIS PORN AND YOU NEEDED DIRTIER AND DIRTIER AND MORE EXPLICIT. DEMEANING PORNOGRAPHY. IT CAN HAVE AN EFFECT ON ONE’S LIFE. WE’LL TALK ABOUT ERICA’S ATTEMPT TO ESCAPE HER ADDICTION. Hello, aloe. Kelp is on the way! With Herbal Essences Bio:Renew Made with active antioxidants that work from the inside out… To help animate lifeless hair. Let Life In with Herbal Essences Bio:Renew. *Fruits and nuts make it so yummy* *real fruits only nothing funny* *just simple ingredients *wrapped with care L�RABAR Food made from food. 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100 comments

  1. Addiction is like your gear slipping into neutral and all you hear are howls but you remain where you are, untill you realize your fuel is getting over .

  2. Calling a man a stud or a player is usually derogatory . Nobody's baking birthday cakes and throwing parties for man-whores.

  3. Good for the lady for having the courage to break this addiction.

    If you can find the discipline to nofap you won’t believe the good it will do for you.

  4. I wonder if the book has a lot of "educational" graphic pictures? ha! ……this poor woman, she just needs an endless string of sympathetic Men to continue helping her work it out!

  5. I remember my addiction. It was shameful because i was humping my pillow in my room and i forgot to lock the door. And my grandma opened the door and caught me. I told her i was practicing how to swim but on my bed.

  6. Why is everyone in the comments section so judgmental, what’s wrong with a woman talking about a problem she has so that she can help others who are also affected? Way to go Erica

  7. So…… She is in recovery by…… Being unrepentant. She moved on from addiction by removing the conscience. I don't think the solution is to unrepentantly practice adultery……. This woman teaches something dangerous and horrible. She is a sham.

  8. Sin brings on shame. Only an insane person would think you can separate the two. This women will not stop feeling shame engaging in this life style. I love purity and chastity.

  9. god I was jerking off so much when I was younger I wish I know so I can writing a book about how much i did that I thought was freaking normal discovering there's white gluey stuff coming out of me but I guess not normal is I thought

  10. The things I’ll do to her would be illegal,
    So illegal she’ll rewrite a new book whilst I’ll be in jail
    From “getting off” to “get off me”

  11. I'm not judging 🙁 so sorry. Hope your doing well these days 🙂 God bless and may your guardian angels protect and bless you 🙂 your very beatiful ( your appearance ) and you are not alone in this ordeal 🙂 you are so pretty 🙂 my sister is beautiful and her name is Arika 🙂

  12. Can't stop looking at her mouth- and thinking…how many. Just funny how the upper right corner of her lips keep twitching upwards.

  13. Why would anyone go on TV or any place until this they're opening themselves up to be a Target easy this something you talk to your psychiatrist about if you need to talk to someone I don't understand it but I'll be damned if I would go on TV and tell everybody I did that part I don't understand you have to be mentally ill to do so.and these journalists they jumped right on something like this because they have a good story and they only work for ratings like I said everybody has a ratio that have to meet out there in the real world.

  14. I’m just gonna verify & check my sources to see she ain’t lying like a rug.. going to xnxx to see if she’s not on..

  15. It almost seems after watching insightful video and interviews like this and worse like murder or child molestation cases that predictors and other like minded world evil doers want us to get entranced in moments of clarity ( if you can call it that) within our own minds without thinking that God is always with us and he understands that we are just trying to be guided in better thoughts and actions instead of letting our better guard down and giving in to pleasures of the flesh…

  16. Well, it never occurred to me that one uses masterbation as a coping mechanism. I wanked alot probably to deal with my depression and anxiety. I used drugs and alcohol for the same reason

  17. That wld be hard to deal with. And to take it to the public. Ahhh. Wow. She made it through at leaste. Thats got to be yard. She taught herself to calm down. Really she did. She worked on that. You know she worked on that for a long time. Shes had to protect it to protect herself. Man. What a life. But she did it. Wow. I shyed aeay from it. It wasnt like that for me. Wow.

  18. 5:42-end. Ya. We know. That’s what every man feels like every 7 minutes. All I’m doin is jerkin’, eatin’ and shittin’. It’s a never ending circle for every male.

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