Rachel Talks Legal High Addiction to BBC Radio Solent After Successful Drug Addiction Treatment

Rachel Talks Legal High Addiction to BBC Radio Solent After Successful Drug Addiction Treatment


My dad was basically, he was like “You’re
going” and my mum was as well. So was my sister. Everyone was really quite happy when
I said and then we found the Providence Project. It was, they, they advise you to go as far
away from home as possible, because I remember days when I was in the Provy that I would
have went home if I could have, because it does get difficult when you’re doing group
therapy things, like that. It’s what needs to be done, yes, but it can, it can be very
difficult but yeah. So my dad got me a train ticket and my mum and dad took me along the
train station. They were both working at the time so they couldn’t, they couldn’t come
down with me or anything like that so I got on the train by myself with a bag and got
down to Bournemouth. Okay so was there any point where you were going to get off that
train half way down? There was, I had to do a switch in Birmingham new street, I think
it was and there was a lot of delays so I was meant to have about 40 minute wait. I
ended up being there for about three and a half hours. I was crying my heart out, I was
ringing my dad, I was ringing the Provy. “I’m not going. I’m not going. It’s fate the
train isn’t coming. I’m not meant to go.” And this was about ten o’clock in the morning
I think it was, and I’m sat basically having a mental breakdown at the train station and
I guess that’s one of the things that kind of hit home for me as well, as the only thing
that I could do at that moment in time was think of was either taking drugs but because
I was in public it was very difficult to do. I didn’t, I got very anxious if I was smoking
the legal highs but then I just seen a can of Fosters out the corner of my eye and it’s
ten o’clock in the morning and I went in just bought a can of Fosters and just sat there
at train station. Drunk it like it was normal and it’s not normal. And looking back at you
sitting there now when you imagine what that would have looked like to you, the other person
now. How does that make you feel? I don’t even have words for that to be perfectly honest.
I genuinely don’t know how I would react if somebody was like that in, in middle of a
train station. I wouldn’t know what was wrong. I wouldn’t know what was going on with them
so I, I really, I don’t, I can’t even describe how it would make how it makes me feel to
be perfectly honest to think about something like that because it’s just… Do you recognize
that person at all now? I do. Not really well but quite well, so it does upset me sometimes
when I see people on the street and things like that because I think there is a way out.
It, it doesn’t have to be that bad. You don’t, you don’t have to be that upset. Not wanting
to do anything all day, every day. it doesn’t have to be like that because there is a way
out. it’s not, it’s not an easy route by no means, but there is a different way.

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